I've been gone for a while. All most without missing a step, I fell back into the old me - the me that I don't want to be - the me that I was/am constently trying to get away from - cursing, drinking, smoking, angry, begging for a moments peaces - a moment away from me.

It's amazing how you can hear it time and time again, but it never be more clear than when you experience for yourself just how infinately far a journey of the soul can take you compaired to the life time journey your feet will. It's amazing how quickly and easily you can get lost and just simply wonder away from home, wonder away from peace. And then to be so lost, so far away just to realize that home is just a thought away.

I'm glad to see the home fires still burning. I'd like be home for a while. I'm glad to be me agian for a while - the that I want to be. Perhaps this time the me that I don't want to be will come home with me and we can all the happy for while.

1. I am grateful for the blessing of forgiveness.
2. I am grateful for the lessons I have learned.
3. I am grateful for the possiblity that the hard lessons are over.
4. I am grateful for what I could be.
5. I am grateful for what I am.

1. I am grateful for this Monday morning - another fantastic time to begin.
2. I am grateful for free Yahoo! Music
3. I am grateful for making the time file my nails.
4. I am grateful for my sense of hearing.
5. I am grateful for music.

1. I am grateful for the surprise visit from rosepadel (my partner) and rose (my daughter).
2. I am grateful for the small fan I have at work that I used to get rid of the gnat that was messing with my gratitude.
3. I am grateful that rosepedal and I can help her family out financially and hopefully emotionally during there time of need while still being able to take care of ourselves.
4. I am grateful that I will be going home soon; not because I don't like my job, but because I love my family.
5. I am grateful that I am grateful.

1. I am grateful that I have to wear high-heeled shoes only 40 hours out of the week.
2. I am grateful for hot water.
3. I am grateful for my daughter's sight therapist.
4. I am grateful that my daughter has adapted so well to what is considered disablities.
5. I am grateful that my partner (rosepedal) did not have to go to the ER.

1. I am grateful that my journal does not judge me for leaving it alone for a little while.
2. I am grateful that my partner loves me and can put up with me loosing my mind every now and then.
3. I am grateful for the possiblity to learn from my mistakes.
4. I am grateful that everyone will be coming to our house for Easter.
5. I am grateful that we have finally pull all of the grass that we are going to pull out of our garden and are now ready to plant. 

1. I am grateful for a growing awareness.
2. I am grateful for an active mind.
3. I am grateful for a healthy body.
4. I am grateful for all of the teachers that are trying to share the truth.
5. I am grateful for my time here to explore all of these things.